Kind of an appropriate title for my first post. Mostly joking though LOL
Hi I'm Manda. I've never blogged before so bare with me!
I'm married to a wonderfully, amazing man, Dan! Who is my best friend and my rock. We are currently TTC (trying to conceive) It has been a crazy journey so far. We suffered our first miscarriage as a couple in March of this year. It was his first, my second one. I don't think it gets any easier with time. The pain is still very raw and very there. I always get very hopeful that "this will be our month". So far I have been very wrong. Tonight I have a really good feeling, so we'll see. If anything I got some good love makin' in!
My other best friend Sunshine is a less than a week from her due day with her first child. I am so ecstatic for her, don't feel too much of the green monster there! LOL
I just want a child so bad it aches sometimes and I have a HUGE fear it will never happen. I have PCOS and that makes it damn near impossible to conceive or so I've been told. Being overweight doesn't help either. Due to the PCOS my body won't let the weight come off no matter how hard I push my body to work out and not matter how much I starve for Carbs, but if I don't loose the weight, It'll make it harder to conceive. No matter what, I'm kind of stuck.
That's why I started this blog. I have to get all of this out. The stress of TTC and loosing weight and back pain and over all being an almost 30 year old women in today's world is really starting to bring me down. Especially the TTC part. I'm very hopeful that by getting it out here, it'll help everything else.
Time will tell...
Until next time....
